have you ever loved somebody so much you’d take away all their problems and make them yours just to see her happy, just to see her not worry about anything being the spectator of someone who truly deserves only good things, a beautiful person who deserves the world yet is humble enough to reject it
Fuck everything tomorrow, fuck everything tonight only place I’m happy is when I’m sleeping
Ive come to a point where I’m tired and now i fear everything.
Any little thing that brings me joy scares me because that same thing making me happy can easily be the thing that kills me and thats what i fear.
Life is a scary present and i fear to open the box, i fear to accept the present i fear life itself; and thats never happen to me before but now m weak .
I fear the unknown I’m not ready for it, i can’t keep up I’m falling behind while everyone speeds up and runs off.
High schools supposed to be the best years of our life,so why do i feel like this?
Should i just change?
Everything about myself? My beliefs the way i see things, the words i speak, my behavior?
Seems like no one likes me now, so why don’t i just get lost in the crowd and be another person who dies inside and follows whatever everyone else does?